leocadiovict's Blog

9/11. Terror attacks. 9/11. Evil Doers. 9/11.

THE MURDER OF MY DAUGHTER FOREVER CHANGED MY LIFE,AND WATCHING HER CHILDREN GROWUP WITHOUT HER THE PAIN IS SO UNFORGIVING & RELENTLESS.

The one? How can there possibly be just one?
If I go to the oldest memory that has never left me, it goes back almost 47 years ago. My brother and I were walking to the liquor store to return bottles. One our way home we took a short cut through a field of tall grass and I heard the most terrifying snarling growl, I couldnt move. My brother picked me up and pushed me to get me going, we ran all the way home and that growl haunted me the rest of my life and caused a lot of fear of the night. I was about 5 at the time.
Then watching my mother's slow decline after her stroke, watching her slowly die and loose all of what she had worked so hard for all her life.
On the positive side would be the night I met my husband, and then the pregnancies and births of my sons. Sorry, I cant just pick one.

Yes, thank you. I think anything that touches our loved ones is of course the most painful. Especially when you have to live it day to day. I can remember for the two years my mom was declining, waking up in the morning, sitting up on the edge of the bed then suddenly realizing that it was Not all just a bad dream. It was another day, of the nightmare that I dreaded all my life.
What does hold us together is for every dark, there is a light. For every rain, there is a shine. For every wrong there is a right. They just dont always seem to come in that order. Our family went through a year and a half back in 1996 and 97, we lost 21 relatives and close friends. It was a very rough time.

Thornyone.... waht was the growling noise?

asnapper and Ruchelle, hi sweety's :-)


I am sorry for all of your loses. I've yet to experience a death of a loved one, so I admire your strength.

I've always known there was something special about y'all. You have the sweetest personalities, I know what it is, it's your love and faith in God that gets you through all the hard times. That same love is what allows you to remain sweet and loving. Take care….you too thorny one, latinawoman,…I’ve grown to respect you. We don’t always agree, but you’ve shown me what class is. Leo, great blog :-)

The growling noise? we never found out, my dad came home that night and when my brother told him what the noise sounded like I collapsed. My dad called the police, they came and took us to the field. They left me in the car while they went to look all they could see was a large area in the grass where something had been laying. We never did find out. When I was 16 and alone one night doing my homework I heard what sounded like kids in the front yard, I went to check but they were way down the street. On the way back inside the house I had to pass an area where we had vines growing, just before I got to the porch I heard that growl again. I almost ripped the screen door off its hinges getting in. Then I realized it must have just been in my head.

dasvics, Thank you. We dont always agree with anyone. If we say we do we are lying. Because we may disagree doesnt make us mad at each other or enemies, It just increases our understanding of each other and gives us another way to look at things. We may not always like what we hear at the time, but later when we are alone with our thoughts we can generally understand the others point of view.
You are very fortunate to have not lost anyone close to you. I think I was in my 40's before it started, but then like I've written earlier the next year and a half...21...Now I try to be thankful for each and every day I can share and enjoy with my loved ones.

thank you dasvics and thonyone i appreciate the kind words yeah it has not been an easy road but i am glad i got it out in the open and i let people know that it is not there fault and there are people that are put there to help.

dasvics- i love you thought on life and how you live life.

Mine came when I was 22 standing abound getting in to trouble with friends and I witnessed a child abduction. Without even thinking I reacted and like to think that I saved a life that day. That action has changed the way I see the world. That action even made sub-conciously, defined me for who I have become. I believe in right and wrong and will never stand back and say that bad things sometimes happen to good people. Please get involved. I pray that your indifferance doesn't come back to haunt you.