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I find you S____ M_________ Pathetic:

I do not hate you like you want me too; no just find you Pathetic...

For all your ____ and mean manipulating deeds; hate was not developed over time, only the sad feelings of depression over how Pathetic your schemes make you...

It was not your pushing your way into my life every time I was set on a new and BETTER path WITHOUT YOU!

No!

That did not make me HATE you!

I do not wake from dead sleep thinking about how ____ you are and your evil court system!

No; like Christ I understand that you do not know what you are doing?

So I do not hate your guts!

Just because you could keep me from keeping one that actually LOVED me and did not want to dominate or "CHANGE" ME; just loved me.

Not that having a real life that took three decades to develop; completely destroyed so you could manipulate people into the state of denial of truth and justice (that is the American court phony system) that you are some victim being robbed so you could clean out three decades of savings and collection.

Do you even still have any of my gold or did you lose it since it was not a million dollars to YOU?!

I find you Pathetic!

Remember what I said to you about you from day one!

You love misery!

And if you do not repent before you die and live a life that demonstrates a better life of God not spiritualism and follow Christ's way even some what;

it will be TOO LATE if you realize after that.

Remember, I do not HATE you at all; but want you to live a long life with what you have made of it and those around you.

if you can find anyone that does not also hate your guts like your son, daughter, Niece, Sister, and of course NOT mE!

Should not have ignore common sense like your colleges and lower level schools educate of to being; and caused the children you could not abort father to suicide with your "Selfish" life style!

Then maybe someone in your family would not hate your guts behind your back and do mean things to you!

And calling me another man's name for five years may have hurt like everything else you did to me, but that just demonstrates how Pathetic you are.

And bother I better not make any mistakes talking to you and not use your name huh!

Hate the pathetic; not likely.

enjoy your bed; you made it, and you made my bed as well with my allowance of your being even being near me.

Say what do your long time friends tell you now?

I do want you to live a long and lonely life despised by all!

How can I hate one so stupid as to do that to themselves!


Ps I changed the name to ________; but left this written letter never to be sent sent for ________, reasons!

TAKE AWAY THE POLICE's guns!

Like in England!

I can remember quite well the O. C. California Family Law Judge quickly slam her Gabble down after asking me the question, "Now Mr. xxxxxxxxxxx, how could your wife 'HURT' you?!"

And before I could respond with my scars on my arm or mention the times I got laughed at work for cuts and black eyes....

well I was not allowed to be heard unless I spent over $100,000.00 (just to start).

but put the shoe on the other foot!

Oh wait one moment we are too worried I might get a decent night's sleep smoking POT instead of making Wall Street investors millions no billions of dollars... '

Than deal with the Gang's drive bys so well; they can be in fear for their lives!?

got to go to work...

I did not start studying until I smoked my first joint...

Nothing interesting entered into my heart...

I went from almost being a Doctor to the Biggest Bum on the street.

But I did not even study to almost being footed into Med school (or BS in BIO) That venture was Bleak...

So I smoked my first joint my mind wondered and soon I learned to "focus"...

After error after error I trialled with different Pathways until I found my Perfect Joint...

Then I could sleep {Without worry of addition(s) like pills eventually killing me}, work circles around most others so they called me "Super Horse" but an Ant I am most.

I did not even study until I smoked my first joint!

One recent President has a tough time Kissing and not having everyone cashing in on it. All the while throughout the Presidency cruel events are portrayed or documented; everywhere.

Then the following Presidency is draped with blame like an "Abusive" spouse! No real concrete documentation at all; just plenty of ridicule, movie(s), stories and what finger pointing?

I have not seen anyone look for anything else, follow the money, or anything more than "Barrow" something Handed down...

I now wounder that most all of the mentors that everyone but me had while we were growing up are dead just how are many going to do when they are put the a real test. Not one designed to manipulate?

On one hand, there is Islam something that has knocked down Rome until she went away; rocked India until she rolled over; and I am not too sure (today) what else, they knock on our door...

You see, chess is the game that is being played?

Not really a war...

With that said, what I want to (to "wish" is a negative behavior) flip flop instead of controlling manipulating "Logic" is for a communication of LOGIC.

Not emotional Logic or spontaneous Logic; nope, for that a good chess game is lost!

If one is stiff in a wind, the Strong wind will break one is the common sense pathway; live in ignorance and be blown away is also a pathway; however, if one does not try to prove one is "Right" or the other wrong.

Well then one might have the "opportunity" to give the other enough rope they will hang themselves. Not jump for joy that another bully has moved into town.

A pathway to tolerance and self control or livelihood could be possible, our presence has never been needed the way it has been!

Oh, except if corporate massive profit has a way (like gasoline and food) we might go around kicking in doorways instead of the Natives of the land. Take Southern California's Indians; instead of allowing their own their own way!

It is our self defeating behavior that will continue to drag us down!

I do not know if it is too late (it is seldom too late) to talk just to listen? Not to dictate? To stand by the side of the people one is being a "Good Samaritan" too instead of running one's favorite carpet over them?

But I really doubt if Uncle Sam's "Little Ones" will ever allow themselves to leave Washington Mutual's Banker Pen; like Monkeys not any Ant are they/we/us. So even if we do talk the wrong conversation may evolve by the shear force of "future(s)" monies?

At least some on the Globe's Wall Streets appear to want to talk, but only their conversation!

Anyway, this started out as a flip flopping sound, evolved into a different blog's material. It sort of worked out too, but I know that I forgot several things leading concerning Presidency to Presidency reversals...

that most of my topics are written to an audience that is not alive yet or just born...

sometimes I get a feeling that others feel that I am trying to scar people...

but one cannot find me saying "I am going to kill you; like my ex wife used to yell at me daily"

One may find me in court to protect that same wife's lies! that I am trying to kill her.

NO I am writing to ones that may want to know what it was like to live in post free America!

in todays "Restricted" America bulling it self over others; not listening to others but deny them any rights...

Yes some will get great laughs others just insights but hopefully; avoid the dream I have had about the masses taking out on today's rich and powerful's grand kids and great grand kids for what we/they leave them.

hope not.

Paraquat Kelly made a living off how my/our Government -swayed by Wall Street-- actually tried full steam ahead to KILL ME and anyone else that smoked pot!

Makes me wonder, just how much of MY SAFETY they are REALLY interested in!

And, why the hell I want to support any of them, why I think what goes around MUST come around...

Not a good way to wake up!

Damn murders running free, defenseless killers that is all we are!

well I am going to close now and think all day about how I woke up this morning....

Fn killers bully type fn bad people, and I am the criminal U F's

{and I am suppose to believe that all those dead females dumped on my favorite childhood make out places was random -- I know who it was!!!!?}

I/we are told this and that, but as Wall Streets personal profits soar higher and higher, the people's interests go further into the 1020's!

As before, panic is blamed. But I feel there is more to the underlying issues than we are told.

well for now I was going to say something about only who can afford to drive to work anymore but I am tried and will be resting for now maybe latter

One asks of another, "What is wrong with our times?" The other, says,"I believe it is our own President!" You know the person who is only around for four-years, no longer than eight-years.

Why yes, I "THINK" you are correct it is the President. I "CANNOT" think of any other...

Or, why is our school system always under funded?  Well it is the Mayor...that is the person!

What a group of sand peddlers!

Even the Muslims that have grown out of "Meekdom" (not sheikdom)  into Kidnappers for profit in my time but in the past, conquerors of rich societies for profits. Not meek at all!

Muslims at least do not push sand; wind is more like it, and worse. Not like any ant that I can tell?

So as the wind blows and blows and bows to rocks and bows to objects in the sky; their sun, money, and power lusts of worship is the reasons why they shall fall to pieces in God's own time --"JUST LIKE BABYLON first destroyed what started out as Yahweh's home turned into King Solomon's Temple; then in turn, itself was destroyed to the point of not even rubble standing.

Note wailing wall...

Yes, over educated people are even more predictable for they are locked into money. They should have read/studied the Bible. Maybe even redefined it; not ignore it!

All the warnings are there....my work does have lots of help...

Anyway I shall be watching, listening, and now thanks to on line communication noting. 

Enjoy, while the sun can still be seen, while Kalifornia is still mostly at sea level. while the climate continues to climb.

After all, for every action there just might be and opposite and equal REACTION.

I heard that somewhere. Wonder just how true it is...

Make stupid laws like witch burnings, teens incompetent for profit and control, abortion is good.  But for, money.

How can one make millions of dollars support Wall Streets old monies if they have to care for nature and nature's gifts?

I was watching the movie Iron Man. And the person next to me asked if the ones that are bad and evil or powers that be was President G.W. Bush?

Well no not him; President Bush is really a good man, that President G W Bush may have made several mistakes but was a great President.

The person stopped talking. Heck now why would one stop talking. I can only figure that if one is not on the same band wagon then they might have to actually have real facts.

and no jump to conclusions.

Let me put it this way, if one could actually prove to me that President Bush really did bomb the Trade towers and all that of 9/11 I be the first person to see justice.

Now if they picked on Wall Street, just two blocks away that would have really done us some damage, and said that Wall Street was at it again.  It would be the 1020-30's all over again.

But it did not and they are not.

How blind, bet he has a college degree too.

I must admit that he is almost half way to the truth for he has almost half the story of Jezebel's story.  Another place I lost him at was about Adam's first wife; before Eve. I forget her name.

But he could not even consider anything more than being blind...

Way back in time, before Abraham and after Noah, man denied that God existed; just like those of Noah's time.

Man had a tough time maintaining control over others. Why when those who built up walls and gates around what they considered theirs. Keeping others out and going out and taking and taking only to bring it back inside.

Later rather than sooner, did those "With" need to control those they preyed on. Keep them off balance...

First Yahweh's name was unheard of again, for that was for good truth and justice, they could not have any of that. For how could they take and hide that way.

They came up with the Lord thy God, "Baal" And the people were brainwashed into burning their first born to God for the sin of Adam and Eve...

And the educated people followed along. Worse they ensured that the meek were forced into doing the same. Monkey see monkey do.

So meek people that farmed and conserved the lands soon became caught up in paying the educated taxes. Following this, in order to pay heaver and heaver taxation; their valuable lands became depleted.

Many fled and went their own ways; but the educated had to have more and more. Never satisfied with plenty; more was all they could strive for. Soon they searched out of their walled enclosures and found the meek working and conserving their new lands only to fall victims of slavery.

After thousands of years, the known world had little to no meek anywhere except maybe what we know as the Americas. North America more exactly, for in the Upper North were men eaters and South had head shrinking parties and wild blood parties of body and idol paintings.

Yahweh soon had no choice, he could turn his face away no longer for the cries of the all the dead first born as they burnt...

So Yahweh found one of the "Old Ones" that carried the gene of long life that Adam pasted down that was still meek.

Abram was his name.

1,000's of years latter, after the line of Abram became Abraham and then lost favor of the Lord Yahweh due to the Educated (over educate where they became blind with greed and power) A half distant relative of Abraham family line also dropped away from Yahweh and choose another man made God.

In order to leave the meek standing they had only to seek what the educated had. No longer content with a simple life. For the Educated were once again pressing taxes and stealing families away for slaves. In their minds they were protecting a way of life; but they lost favor of the True God.

Yahweh works many times in out past using what is at hand; like Babylon taking down the Israelites for becoming worse than the people Moses and Joshua removed from what became the promised lands.


So the Arabs of today past line many times have been favored by Yahweh even though they do not recognition Yahweh but that of a man. A man that calls himself God.

Not the son of God...

Why for they alone were closes to actually being Holy.

This all reminds me of America's over educated, playing God over all it can. Telling lies to the people earning the name of speaker of "Forked Tongue"!

Where once man was competent at the normal age of 13 into not only believing that 14 was incapable of thinking competently but that actively brainwashed "all" that females of "healthy child" bearing ages were illegal and that only females of defected child births were legal.

Why, so the super Educated could make millions of dollars playing "Mr. Fix it!"

And of course not to forget their other favorite game to play, " Minimize" anyone's opinion as 'sick' that believed differently and jail them ASAP, "Deny" different opinions have grounds to exist, and always falling back onto the old Israeli tactic that got them destroyed twice now, the old 'Ah Ha!' "Blaming" and pointing the finger at all those that dared to think differently.

Yes the educated, actually over educated, are at it again. Bottomless pits of taxes that never seem enough.

Rules designed to fleece and remove all others but a chosen few of unGodly ones....

So on and so forth until the grounds cracks and shallows us all up for not being meek anymore conserving and being good caretakers of Yahweh's creatures... Just look at Los Angeles, CA's new anti pets except for the rich over educated ones.

My main point is not to jump into child sex. that is not Holly sillies! But that over educators REPEATEDLY have created the destruction of civilizations.

not the meek or those that married young females... Nope not those people but the educated due to being blind to anything but greed and power,

I am posting this now unfinished for I now need to contemplate what is it I really am trying to say...

For all too many, we have association fees as well as taxes. Why would they/we need better or private?

What I am seeing is the showing of a privacy need and separation, the need to keep city employees employed;;;

So we have master stations and massive grids to maintain; stead of having "Planned Communities"

massive water treatment planets feeding non brand new pumping stations that need both maintainance of structure and contamination...

*      HOW TO USE CITY EMPLOYEES FOR THE MAINTAINANCE in cost effective means in the communities within the taxed and plied high with fees:  association; SS's; and whatever else they can dream up.

it is a bottomless pit in all direction...

What a inefficient method that is really a power grab.

Does it really take a "Rocket Scientist" to plan Planned Communities" reduced the need for grid feed; but rather produce their fair share?!

only in an closed minded society that is always RIGHT will this thrive.

medicine that allows nicotine in the tobacco, and then not the tobacco in...


and upside down place...one that rocks and rolls....up and up she may grow changing the climate into an "ice age" or not....?

I do not need my mail over night...{repeat}....

Just look at the V-8 commercial!

That is just a hint;

has anyone noticed that as females take on male rolls, pushed their way in! That the females lose their sex drive and males become passive?

I think this is so funny, I get great laughs daily watching females yearning to be dominated while they have now been programed to fight men in every way!

just too funny!

I could point out so much but i have to run to work dog walks all that; slaves to their man it should be not masters

enjoy you sex lives or lack of it; it being what you really want.. Ha ha ha!

Please Note: I want to see the City PROVE THEIR STATEMENT TO me! That 13 is too young to make adult decisions?

prove it. to me not yourselves! And just do not hand me some pie chart or verbally explain "your opinions" simply supply me the details it!

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and for you over reactive over educated brainwashed sillies I am not into youth rape and things; I just know went I am being lied to for the most part...sure some lies can get by me as well.

I just investigate when I can...not blindly accept it.

In simple words; "I want to know 'ALL' of both sides". End of the rail road of EXtreme; to deal with both extremes.

Where else?

the history channel


the human brain is only limited when restrained; what is really going on?

Only if one is an "Over Educated" American.

My mom, had my older Brother - the Doctor now - reading as long as I can remember. And she showed me words and spelling so if I got lost....

I knew my name, spelt my last name which is 9-letters long at about two...

It is nothing new except to Americans that are super offended by males seeking willing young females. Hyper sensitive?

The only real reason I feel it is such a bad thing today is OLD females need all the help they can get. In their own mind!

Anyway, I see females hooking up with boys much younger than them all over...

I still have to blog this concept further until I actually figure out what is really going on; for I do not believe any medical group that allows Nicotine added to Tobacco!

and other reasons I need to work it all out for me to know, I understand the most of us just need someone to "Stereo Type" and run down making fear the word of the century.

From Banks that take it upon themselves to "Not Listen" to what one has to say concerning one's own stolen ID. Cutting one off and not waiting for any reference number of years gone by number(s) one took the time to save (and copied the local Police department at the time for one already knows the incompetence!).

Banks that approve large $10,000.00's of dollars to another that stole the ID social number but wrong date of birth; just how GREEDY" can a bank get?

And from a Medical system that bows to a blind to justice legal system (if one may call that a real system?!) allowing Wall Street to control what is a good medicine over a real medicine...

Over to a system of supposed order, that disallows one to study the word of God so one actually knows and understands what is going on in the World. Nope!

They would rather the male feel abused and forgotten, or not needed anymore the females have their court systems that fleece the people; especially the males...

To the point of mass killings of one's own family! Of course, now no one can figure it out so I get it"Let's fleece some more...)

Power and control ha!

Even in fighting fires that burn what is left of mountain growth and rain fall control along with Heat control! Nope, they prefer to let it burn at night and not even try anything maybe better. Say Blimps that may help a 24/7 fight out of it and non stop water delivery system.

Heck no! that may take away from fleecing even more money and support a need that might not be there!?

After all, they can blame the people for believing the blimp will blow up. Like we us helium not hydrogen. What college 4-years of waste we turn out to be!

Well my blood pressure is going up and up so I better quit now.

Closing words go get them Rev. show them what it is all about and do not let us beat up on your mama and your background!

For in my opinion you are exactly correct! Heck what is his name again. Shame I only have 20-minutes to do everything!

Hey I have a money making, controlling idea! Let's tell the people that 13 is incompetent, that old age females are the real thing; and then tell everyone that the rise in birth defects is normal!

Normal for old age females!

Oh yes, give the way too  OLD females all the power and control in relationships so money can be made of DEATH AND DESTRUCTION!?

Maybe we should consider things like this here in the land of Higher Education where thinking stops. Wrong legs get surgeries, insurance schemes to clean up on taxes just like the city officials do.

Shhh, do not let the people know! (...)